MAAF :(

hanya aku mampu merindui dari kejauhan..
setiap langkahmu ku doakan kejayaan dan kebahagiaan..
Ya Allah , sayang maafkan jika aku merinduimu tanpa izinmu..
Sekira aku dapat melihat dirimu dari kejauhan sudah cukup bagi aku..
Insyallah , aku tabahkan hati utk teruskan kehidupan tanpa kamu d sisi .. Ya Allah rawat lah jiwa dan raga hambamu ini yang merindui dan menyayangi org yg telah berlalu pergi ..ikhlaskan hati ku untuk meredhai ketentuan mu .. amin


                                                                            Nia Mhd :)

Sang Musafir Cinta Di hati

Wahai awan, angin.. seluruh alam semesta..
Hembuskan tiupan bayu laut segera ..
Sampaikan salam rindu dendam hamba
buat Sang Pencinta Agung.. Sang ruya
terasa mahu kiranya..
ingin sekali hamba temui dia..
biar dalam mimpi fantasi alam imaginasi hamba..
benarkan.. bawakan dia pada hamba..

kehebatan CINTA AGUNG tuan tebarkan..
buat hati hamba bergetar teruja hebat
memuja tuan dalam tiap helaian kalam diselongkar
menanti tiap detik berakhir lagenda,
bagaikan mencarik gundah meraba maya
melarik semua rasa rindu, mengusik seluruh jiwa
merungkai tiap segala kisah tentang tuan..

Sang Ruya..
Hati wanita hamba meruntun syahdu..
berlinang mengalir hangat perlahan
saat akhiran kisah ternoktah!


sang ruya, ku alunkan puisi ini buat tuan..

Always

Selama mana.. harus ku mencari
Igauan ini.. ku gagahi...
Ingin berjumpa.. sayang kau tiada
Hati jiwa.. rasa cinta.. seorang lelaki

Lemas meronta, menggoncang lara
Menangis aku sendiri
Jangan ditanya, engkau pun tahu
mengapakah bersembunyi

Kau.. jelmalah engkau
Beraksi rindu
Mimpi-mimpiku

Malam.. di gerbang luka
Menggarap cinta
Suratan resah

Malam..di gerbang luka
Menggarap cinta
Suratan resah

Bulan.. bukannya bintang
Siang.. hilanglah malam
Gundah... bila kau hilang
Resah.. hilang kau datang

Jika kau tiba,
Jelanglah sinar
malamku yang kesepian
Moga hangatnya,
rasa asmara,
kasih hulurkan cintamu

Nilam.. juga permata
Nilai.. bukannya intan
Sayang.. bila kau datang
Senyum.. hilanglah duka

HE'LL NEVER KNOW

I want to run, I want to hide.
From all the pain he caused inside.
I want to scream, I want to cry.
Why can't I tell him Goodbye?

I want to move on, I just can't let go.
I love him more than he will ever know.
I want to start over, I want to feel free!
But this pain will never leave me be.

He hurt me bad, the pain is deep.
From all the promises he couldn't keep.
All the lies, I heard him say.
Are in my head and just won't fade.

How can I forget him, leave the him behind.
Erase the memories from my mind.
He doesn't love me, and he never will.
He will never care, how I feel.

IMY

The night before, I made you mad
I wasn't appreciating, the love that I had
I came home so drunk, I was really quite late
I left you alone, sitting home there to wait

I was too self involved, I wasn't using my head
Alcohol took over, its hunger I fed
I was drinking too often, I thought I was fine
Too blinded to realize, the problem was all mine

I was never mad at you, I was mad at myself
I let life pass me by, seemed it was on the back shelf
I blamed all of my problems, on everyone but me
Destined for ruins, and alone I would be

I made a bad choice, I should have been there with you
My greatest mistake, and there was nothing I could do
I tried to get sober that night, but made it worse than you know
I hated myself, cause I resorted to blow

That night I never came home, cause I felt too much shame
You'd be able to tell, and there was only me I could blame
I text you that night, to say tomorrow I would call
The next day with a hangover, I would for-get that all

I went through my next days, scared you'd be mad
Hiding ashamed, not thinking you were sad.
I forgot I had hurt you, I couldn't remember last night
My words cut you deep, on the phone in our fight

You wanted to love me, to work through it all out
I didn't know that, I was too scared you would shout
I gave it some time, to get my head straight
I took way too long, how long should you wait?

You had now left me, When I got my priorities in line
I wanted to marry you, but you were no longer mine
I cried and I lost it, how could I mess up so bad
this had all happened, cause I spent to much time being mad

I got over my issues, I finally see clear
I was drinking and hiding, I had too much fear
The old me is gone, but how could you know
I wish I still had you, how I wish that was so

I'm sorry DADDY (A.S.F.A.J).. I miss you everyday

WITHOUT HIS LOVE

What has happened is never spoken
And everything around me has been broken
There's no words, just silence.
Hate, but no violence
Sadness, without tears
Humans, without fears.

When will the ground break?
Where is the open gate?
Slowly, the darkness creeps
But still, no one weeps.
All are withering
Hearts are shriveling.

This world has grown cold
There's no one left to hold.
I fear that I too will join them soon
Just when the light fades from the moon.
My beloved has been turned into a dove
And now I know what becomes of this world, 
Without his love.

HOW IT USED TO BE

I remember how it used to be
when nothing else matter but you and me
music, country roads, and future dreams.

I miss you, I wish you could see
although you are here, I miss you and me.

I remember when you said how happy I made you
and you really meant it...now, it's just a phrase
you say without thinking.

I miss those days when you'd call just to say "hi"
or "I love you"...the days it was so hard
just to say good-bye for a while.

I remember how wonderful it felt the first time
you held me in your arms-and how after all those
years you still made my heart melt.

I miss the old you- and the old me
The old us that could just sit and talk for hours
and never run out of things to say.

I remember when time simply stood still-
when in each other's arms is the only place
we wanted to be...forever.

I miss us as I remember how it used to be...
when nothing else matter but you and me.

JUST I LOVE YOU AND GOODBYE

Not once did I expect this to happen.
Never in my wildest dream that I’ve fallen,
To a boy who wasn’t my prince charming
Not to someone who is my friend.

It must been your sweetness that melt my heart
Or your gentle smile could be the start.
Whatever the reason for me to feel this way
One thing I know, this strange feeling grows stronger everyday

All this time I’ve been praying
For you to see and look at me as a lady
Every now and then I woke up dreaming
That I can be your girl, not just a friend

Then reality broke me into pieces
It wounded me bad as it came to my senses.
That you belong to someone else
And I’m left alone with all this heartaches

A few might have a clue
But nobody knows the pain I’ve been thru
They can’t guess the sleepless nights
Nor count the tears I’ve cried.

My friends see me smiling and laughing
Yet deep inside there’s no place for denying.
I know a have to surrender and let go
At least to cease and ease the misery 

Still I’d be happy,
Coz happiness means seeing you being one.
And let me say this for once, I Love you…!
But I love you more, so Goodbye……

MY LOVE FOR YOU

The Bit by bit and day by day
In such a special lovely way
Do not know why or how to say
But I shall try to... If I may

And thus I shall try to explain
That despite heavy pouring rain
In times of sorrow and of pain
My love for you was not in vain

When I was down and even sad
If I felt angry rather mad
If I was in tears feeling bad
My love for you I did not dread

I was insulted even mocked
My same own life I feel was blocked
The doubts that came and often knocked
My love for you was safely locked

Until the day you came to me
The love in me you did not see
Without you dear how could I be?
My love for you I could not free

And yet you know I still love you
A love that’s strong and oh so true
Where you go where to
My love for you will follow too

KISS OF MY LOVE

Your beauty overwhelms me
As I wrap my arms around you
I press your softness tight
Great passion fills my inner being
I'm captured in your embrace
Your eyes control my very soul
The touch of your lips, heaven
Forever frozen in time
All else fades into nothing

ABOUT ME !

# I CAN'T SING
# I CAN'T PLAY MUSIC INSTRUMENT
# I CAN'T BE LIKE A MODEL
# I CAN'T MAKE PEOPLE LIKE ME

BUT

# I CAN DANCE
# I CAN COOK
# I CAN WRITE A POEM
# I CAN BE JUST LIKE ME

## DEAL WITH IT##

MY ★

HAVING A COKE WITH YOU ✿

                                         HAVING A COKE WITH YOU

is even more fun than going to San Sebastian, Irún, Hendaye, Biarritz, Bayonne
or being sick to my stomach on the Travesera de Gracia in Barcelona
partly because in your orange shirt you look like a better happier St. Sebastian
partly because of my love for you, partly because of your love for yoghurt
partly because of the fluorescent orange tulips around the birches
partly because of the secrecy our smiles take on before people and statuary
it is hard to believe when I'm with you that there can be anything as still
as solemn as unpleasantly definitive as statuary when right in front of it
in the warm New York 4 o'clock light we are drifting back and forth
between each other like a tree breathing through its spectacles

and the portrait show seems to have no faces in it at all, just paint
you suddenly wonder why in the world anyone ever did them

I look
at you and I would rather look at you than all the portraits in the world
except possibly for the Polish Rider occasionally and anyway it's in the Frick
which thank heavens you haven't gone to yet so we can go together the first time
and the fact that you move so beautifully more or less takes care of Futurism
just as at home I never think of the Nude Descending a Staircase or
at a rehearsal a single drawing of Leonardo or Michelangelo that used to wow me
and what good does all the research of the Impressionists do them
when they never got the right person to stand near the tree when the sun sank
or for that matter Marino Marini when he didn't pick the rider as carefully
as the horse

it seems they were all cheated of some marvelous experience
which is not going to go wasted on me which is why I am telling you about it

—Frank O'Hara

FEELING BREEZE ❤

KERANA DIRIMU TETAP DIHATI :)

                         AWANG SURNIA FIZUL B. AWANG JAMAIN

Aku mencintaimu bagaikan langit memeluk bintang
Aku luksikan cinta di hati tak terbatas lagi
Cinta yang dulu bersemi kini menjadi masa laluku
Hatiku hancur tiada berkeping bagaikan segelintir debu

Kepergianmu tanpa alasan yang pasti
Kau buat hatiku kini lemah tak berdaya
Semakin hancur hatiku ini tanpamu
Ku tak bisa berdiri tegak dan bernafas lega

Kepergianmu tanpa alasan yang pasti
Kau buat hatiku kini lemah tak berdaya
Semakin hancur hatiku ini tanpamu
Ku tak bisa berdiri tegak dan bernafas lega

Semakin hancur hatiku ini tanpamu
Ku tak bisa berdiri tegak dan bernafas lega.